“Speak, for your servant is listening.” 1 Samuel 3:10 NASB
I’m learning how obtuse I have been in my life. I’m learning all these new, big words since I started back to school. I’m spending more time in my dictionary than any other book. Obtuse, according to the dictionary means annoyingly insensitive or slow to understand. I’m guilty of both, I have been obtuse in my life. But I’m learning!
For instance, I can completely miss what is happening right in front of my face. Here’s an example from my single days. In this case I’m erring on the “slow to understand” side of the definition. We’ll see if my husband reads my blog with this one. If he does, I know I’ll hear about it, said with a big smile on my face.
I just realized an IRS agent had a crush on me, I was obtuse. He helped me when I was audited. Long story short, I had done my own taxes and made a mess of it. If you can at all help it, have someone who knows what they’re doing do your taxes. It will save you having to meet an IRS agent. Gratefully, I had a very nice one.
He was so nice, I sent him a thank you card for his efforts. About two weeks later, he calls me with a few follow-up questions. Which irritated me. I was tired of dealing with it. It just occurred to me today, when I was having my business taxes done, it was because of the card. I think the guy might of liked me.
I don’t know, I never will know. I was to obtuse to know what was happening in the moment. (See how I snuck obtuse in there? The more I use it, the more it helps me remember what it is. )
This scripture we started with is when God was calling Samuel into ministry. God had already called out several times, but Samuel didn’t know who it was that was calling. He was obtuse in the moment. The beauty of this story, God doesn’t stop trying. He keeps calling out until Samuel responds, “Speak, for your servant is listening.”
I don’t want to be obtuse when it comes to God. I want to always hear Him when He calls me.