Hill or Valley?

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—where does my help come from?  My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.”   Psalm 121:1-2
My pastor started a new series this week, Hills and Valleys.  It’s talking about when life is good and when life is bad.  There is always the in between.
I am currently in the in between.  I don’t know whether I’m going up the hill or down into the valley.  I wonder how many of us are in the same position?
I run two small businesses.  I teach tennis and I walk dogs.  Both of them require me being on my feet.  I found out yesterday I have a spur at the end of my achilles.  It’s caused by chronic inflammation in the tendon.  In other words, six months ago when it started to bother me, if I’d paid attention to the pain I was feeling, I may not be in this boat.  I could of just rested it then for a few weeks and it would have been fine.
But I didn’t. I ignored the red flags.  Now I’m facing possible surgery and months of recovery.
What if I hadn’t ignored the red flags?  Hindsight is always 20/20.  I wonder why we do it to ourselves?  Why do ignore the signs? The warnings God places in our path to keep us from injuring ourselves?  It can be relationally, physically, financially.  There are so many times we see the symptoms but ignore the problem.
The friend who only calls when they need something and we’re always there.  The boyfriend/girlfriend who only cares about their needs and we push ours aside.  The pain we feel in our achilles but keep playing anyway.  The credit card we can’t pay off at the end of the month but we keep charging.
Just a few examples, and we’re all guilty of it at one point or another.  I can just imagine God looking down on me right now, shaking His head.  “I tried to warn you Beth.  You wouldn’t listen.  How much pain do you have to feel for me to get your attention?”
That’s just heartbreaking.  I think I’m so tight with God, yet sometimes I ignore His most obvious signs.  Thank You God for loving me anyway.  Forgive me for not listening.
I wonder what God is trying to tell you that you’re not hearing?  How much pain do you have to feel before you start listening?  I’m praying it’s not as much as mine!